More Truths Please!

I went to the Open Nest conference at the weekend. Its a good job I didn’t have far to travel because on Saturday morning I nearly didn’t go! I was feeling that I had quite honestly become so fed up with the whole adoption thing. Strops, rages and violence at home, same at school, meetings with school telling me she should “do as she is told”; meeting with social workers who came to “see if it was adoption breakdown or child protection”!!!! Police checking in with in after the run away. It’s just never ending.

So honestly, the only reason really I went to the conference was because my lovely friend (who lives miles away from me and who I haven’t seen for ages) was going too.

Arrival wasn’t great! My first encounter was to be blanked by a SW who used to hug me! Clearly she was aware of visits of colleagues but there was no need to be rude!

I met my lovely friend and had quick catch up. Then we went into the conference and ended up on a table at the back. I still wasn’t sure I wanted to be there. I didn’t really know what to expect. Did I want more of PACE, do this, try that? I tried to keep an open mind.

On introduction there was a mention of keeping updates on Twitter using #takingcare. Well I usually write down quotes and bits and pieces of interest so instead I got my phone out and opened Twitter. To be honest (I now realise) I was also using that to keep my distance, to dissociate myself from the conference, from the topic of adoption. It was my subconscious attempt to keep myself sane and safe. So I began tweeting. I did feel a bit like a naughty child at the back of the class! Yet, my previous life as a PA, fast typist and minute taker came in handy!! I ended putting out a stream of quotes and comments all day.

However, my reason for being fed up with adoption is that it feels nothing has changed in 7 years since my girls were place. No change in 10 years since we started our journey. I was kind of shocked but really not surprised that Amanda Boorman’s brilliant film showing their 15 year journey was the same or similar as ours. It’s just not right!

That’s also the reason I withdrew from social media for a while earlier this year. I withdrew in order to be #takingcare of myself.  At the time there were all those TV programmes showing other people on the adoption journey saying the same things I did and no-one correcting them; no-one teaching them reality. On one of those TV programmes I saw adopters (considering a match with an FASD child) saying “we would not know what illness or difficulty we might have with a birth child”. Years ago I also said that!!! I wanted to rationalise and normalise the issues adopted children come with. Yet, here’s the truth ….

We would not have a child with attachment issues.

We would not leave them hungry, cold, alone or scared.

We would not have a child traumatised or hurt.

We would not have a child with drug or alcohol issues when born.

We would not neglect our children.

We would not leave them with strangers or openly invite people in to abuse them.

When are adopters going to be told honestly, openly that actually these children are damaged?  Just the very fact that they have been removed will have a lasting effect on these children.

Come on people! We need open, honest conversations. It will not scare adopters away!

Those open honest conversations and presentations happened at the wonderful Open Nest Conference ( and even more so at the Adoption Social ( evening which followed.

It was worth every minute. I’m so glad I went in the end!

For that, Amanda Boorman, Sarah, Vicki, Al Coates, Sally Donovan, Fran Proctor, I thank you.


7 thoughts on “More Truths Please!

  1. Thanks for sharing. I wasn’t there but am really honoured to read the honest and open accounts such as yours (and as a prospective adopter can I say i really am listening and trying to learn from all of you and your experiences, however naive and optimistic I may also be alongside – I am at least trying).

    • Hi. I know majority of adopters are listening and its great that you are in thia community of sharing, learning and supporting. I guess i didnt clarify that I meant SW need to be honest with us and with you!
      Thank you for reading though.
      I hope your journey goes ok x

  2. So sorry I couldn’t stay and meet everyone properly (including you), but I’m so glad you came and I was very grateful for your tweets, which I shamelessly retweeted instead of typing my own!

    It was an amazing event, and I hope everyone took something useful or supportive away from it. I hope you’ll link up to #WASO, I know others will appreciate this post xx

    • No doubt we will meet another time! I love that the tweets so helpful to many and I’m sure everyone took something good from it.
      Hope your family are ok.
      Thanks for reading

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